To Whom It May Concern:
I am writing you this letter out of legitimate concern. From one human being to another. Maybe a healthier female perspective will make you see, how your immature selfish actions affect everyone involved including me.
I’m not putting pen to paper to chastise, rant or punish. Even though I am almost positive that if you eventually see this (despite my extensive social media blocking) you will only focus on the negative perspective to try and achieve some personal gain in this situation.
I may come across as brash or aloof, but I am who I am and I write how I write. I feel how I feel and I will not apologize for my experience and perspective when it comes to you or anyone else.
I will admit that at first I was completely stand offish towards the reality of you being in the cypher. I let my insecurities take control and I take responsibility for that. After way too many arguments and pep talks in the mirror while I wiped mascara rings from under my eyes, I came to an understanding. You are important to him so by osmosis you are important to me.
I can accept that. I can find peace in that. I can move on from that. However, your incessant selfie texting narcissistic Facebook harassing and denial ridden communication with my boyfriend is beyond disrespectful not just to me and my relationship… But to yourself. And since obviously nobody cares enough to let you know and give you a bar of the truth. Here I am out of love to do it.
You look desperate. You seem sad. You are exuding everything that every self sufficient pride possessing female hates… I understand regretting decisions made and clumping them into a dirty laundry pile of mistakes but this one will never come clean out of the wash. You did things that do not warrant solution and killed love and feelings beyond resurrection. Love is not disrespecting something you are jealous of. Love is accepting it and moving forward.
Your actions make him into a person you hate. Maybe you do this so that somebody else will feel your pain. Misery loves company right? You want somebody else to be cut the way you were. Unfortunately no matter how hard you try, no matter how much you will it and try to “Secret” the shit out of the situation, the outcome you want will not present itself. You will never achieve undoing what you’ve done.
I worry that it’s been so long and these behaviors of yours persist. Do you not have any social outlets? Does your vagina reek so badly of a two week old tuna fish sandwich under a prepubescent boys bed that no one else will touch you? Does your materialism get in the way of an actual spiritual connection with another human? Or are you really just that moronic and insecure?
How many times does he have to cancel on you for you to get the point? How many daggers from ignored phone calls do you have to remove from your back before you call a truce to this fight? How many more lies can you endure in an effort to protect your feelings before you just finally move on with your life?
It’s not like you’re invited over for family dinners or get the truth let alone any information about what is really going on in our life. In all reality all you are clutching to is a lie. A fabrication of an intricate life puzzle where you are an essential corner piece… When in reality the puzzle you belong to has been long broken down, put away in the box and shoved in the back of the closet to be forgotten until the next time we get snowed in for a week and run out of activities to occupy ourselves with.
I’m not saying give up on yourself. I hope you find love and happiness within yourself and with somebody who cherishes you. But to find that you need to love yourself and the things you are doing are not representative of that in any way shape or form. The path you are on is going to render you 40 and single in a one bedroom apartment that wreaks of dog piss, with nothing but a pint of Hagen Dazs in the fridge, while you fantasize about your married balding boss fucking you doggy style in he and his wife’s bed. You are in peril of bleeding out any of your realistic options. Have some self respect and move on. Love yourself enough to quit revisiting unhappy destinations and repeating unhealthy patterns.
Patterns
*breathe*
Patterns
*breathe*
So please from one woman to another… Grow the fuck up and take responsibility for what you have created and walk away with class. If your interactions were appropriate everything would be gravy. If you respected our relationship you could be part of our family. But sadly… You are so small minded that you don’t care about the happiness of someone you “love”. You care about receiving the kind of attention you want when you want it.
Although you may choose to be oblivious to these facts I am a semi omnipotent creature with a head on a swivel… And I see you… Even though we have never met… I know you… I have met a thousand Gucci purse bearing manipulative vagina possessing lemmings in my day… I think you have the potential to be an open minded emotionally mature well rounded individual… But for some reason you don’t see and refuse to act on that potential within yourself… And that’s the difference between me and you… Take all of that as you may…
Carry on!
domoarifoto 